February was filled with longing and melancholy.
I had a change in my medication that helped, but the feelings from earlier in the month cast a dark shadow on the month.
At times, existing is exhausting, but I’m grateful to be here.
February was filled with longing and melancholy.
I had a change in my medication that helped, but the feelings from earlier in the month cast a dark shadow on the month.
At times, existing is exhausting, but I’m grateful to be here.
I replaced my day zero project goals with new 50 before 50 goals when I turned 30.
This gives me 20 years to complete them.
Below are my goals, in no particular order:
2. Walk a 5k 27. Try a float pod
3. Visit all 50 states with George 28. Parasailing
4. Read 500 books 29. Visit a film festival
5. Build a snowman 30. Go to a tarot reading
6. Publish a book 31. Have $1m saved for retirement
7. Rent a beach house 32. Try five foods that I hate, but never tried
8. Create a family time capsule 33. Go on a submarine
9. Spend the night in a castle 34. Nascar Experience
10. Kiva Loan 35. See a total solar eclipse
11. Plant a tree 36. Acupuncture
12. Vote in an election 37. Kiss in the rain
13. Ride a hot air balloon 38. Karaoke
14. Camp at the beach 39. Write a letter to open when I turn 50
15. Travel Alone (local) 40. Write a letter to: George, Caro, Geo
16. Travel Alone (abroad) 41. Zero Gravity Plane
17. See a show on Broadway 42. See the Northern Lights
18. Zipline 43. Be a film extra
19. Skinny Dipping 44. Spend the night in a treehouse
20. Visit three new countries 45. Rent a movie theater for a private showing
21. Spend the night on a train 46. Go on a night ghost tour
22. Learn a song on the piano 47. Move to Colorado
23. Get a matching tattoo with Didi 48. Earn a six figure salary
24. Watch a live taping of SNL 49. Murder Mystery on Burgh Island
25. Become debt free 50. Private 👻
It makes me wonder what younger me would think of where I am now. It’s been interesting to read old posts. There’s so much that I had forgotten and I noticed a level of naivety and optimism that is standard at 21.
I thought I was so grown up and I knew everything, but I was still a child.
This year I turn 35, that half way point between 30 and 40, and the approaching birthday has me reflecting on my past and reevaluating my present.
I’m also in therapy so I’m constantly working hard on realizing things.. trying to get to the root of why I do the things I do and why I feel the things I feel.
I hope to use this space to reflect and share my journey.
I don’t do the day zero project anymore, that’s been replaced by my 50 goals before 50.
I’d like to document my progress with those goals here too.
We will see.